Your Mama so fat, I took a picture of her Last Christmas, and that shit is still printing.

I’m not afraid to fall in love. I’m just afraid to fall for something I thought was love.

Cherish what you have, before it turns into something you had.

You're the reason why I always thought babies came out of their mom's ass....
cause you look like shit


LMAAAAOOO

You'll never find the right person, If you don't let go of the wrong one.

Lady Gaga taught me Its okay to be different. Ke$ha taught me to be myself and not care what anyone else thinks. Bruno Mars taught me to do anything for that one person I love. Eminem taught me that life is hard but you can make it through. Taylor Swift taught me not every guy is going to treat me right. Michael Jackson taught me to always love the people around me. Bob Marley taught me to live my life in peace. Music taught me how to live. 

When you judge someone

It doesn't define who they are, It defines who you are.

The more you get to know a person, the more attractive they become to you. Because everything beautiful you see on the inside of them, suddenly you’re able to see on the outside of them too.

Pictures 2010.

http://bribreeezy.tumblr.com/post/2141488048/i-like-to-annoy-my-boyfriend-when-he-plays-cod

Today

I realized, I have to move on.
He's not coming back.
But that's okay 'cause I don't want him
anymore. Sure, I do miss him at times,
but as a friend. Not a lover.
Just a friend. I'm going to find someone
who's going to make me happier than him.
One day.
 I just gotta be patient..

Bye.

What I found in a Jone's Bottle - Wish he talked to me.

I HATE PEOPLE FLOPPING ON ME

Like I get ready, put on makeup. All of that.
Then at the last minute they change their mind,
and at the beginning they're like oh for sure
we're going..

Waste of makeup + time.

Every person has two sides to them. One they let the world see and one they keep to themselves.

If God answers your prayer, He is increasing your faith. If He delays, He is increasing your patience. If He doesn’t answer, He knows you can handle it.

WHY AM I SUCH A PUSSY

Why am I wasting my time evaluating the situation
coming up with ideas to bump into you
and telling you I still love you.

Oh yeah, 'cause I'm a fucking pussy. :(

Favourite Dream

I had a dream you broke up with your girlfriend, and called me but I wasn't there to pick up.
Your friend called, then you, then her again.. I think her name was Bridget
And your number was with a 9 somewhere.
And somehow I knew you were going to this place with like train tracks and snow everywhere.
When I know you were there, I ran to Ruchama for perfume LOL Then we I ran near you.
We looked into each others eyes like the first time ... I told you I missed you
You announced me as your girl again. We were so cute. Always cuddling and laughing.
I felt so strong and like nothing could ruin that. You laid me on the snowy traintracks
and kiss me in front of your ex. Claudia Iaboni. It felt like the old you was back.
You said I looked better than last year.. 

THEN I WOKE UP, FUCK MY LIFE.

It's almost been a year and I'm still not over you.

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep becuase finally, reality is better than you’re dreams”- Dr. Seuss

Christmas Dinner W. Family

I HATE MY UNCLE YOU FUCKING DICK
WELL YOU'RE NOT EVEN MY BLOOD UNCLE
FUCKING ASSHOLE. INSENSITIVE JUDGMENTAL PRICK.
SAYING HOW I'M A BAD DAUGHTER
IF YOU DIE I WON'T CARE.
DON'T EVER FUCKING EMARESS ME INFRONT OF PEOPLE
THE ONLY REASON I'M NICE TO YOU IS CUASE YOUR WIFE IS
THE NICEST PERSON EVER AND I LOVE HER,
NOT YOU.
TALKING SHIT ABOUT MY HAIR, DO FUCKING DIE BITCH.

Pap’s Cabin in Illinois and Widow Douglas’ Cabin in St. Petersburg

                Pap’s Cabin and St. Petersburg is a significant symbol in the novel The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. Pap’s Cabin is located in Illinois, a free state, on the shore, three miles across the Mississippi River from St. Petersburg. The audience is faced with the reality of how poorly slaves are treated and the constant grief they must overcome. This assists in developing the character of Huckleberry Finn because he is put into the similar position of a slave. Here, Huck is ridiculed, abused and kept against his own will by his delusional father, which leads Huckleberry into orienting his escape. Even though Mark Twain has done a compelling job clarifying the details of an ideal slave’s routine with his descriptive technique, the truth is people will never fully comprehend what people have been through. People may have heard other people’s stories, but they never once will ever feel what those people did in their hearts. Pap’s Cabin highlights the theme of fear, isolation and imprisonment. The atmosphere is awfully uncivilized. St. Petersburg, on the other hand is located in Missouri on the opposite direction of the Mississippi River from Pap’s Cabin. St. Petersburg is a slave-holding society that has no compassion for the freedom of people of African descent. This is the location of where Huckleberry’s adventures begin, for every reader is aware that Huck will not stay with the Widow Douglas and Miss Watson for long. There are extremely strict rules in the household for Huck is in the process of being trained to be civilized with etiquette manners, for he highly dislikes.

To John:

...just forget about her 'cause there's no use

if you actually really did want to be with her you wouldn't give up
'cause when it's too late you're going to be sitting on
your ass wishing you could have tried a little harder
when you actually had the chance
and your gunna feel like a piece of shit
and it's not nice to feel like a piece of shit
i said the same thing you did before with my ex
& i regret it .. so don't be stupid like how i was
and go work things out like you guys ALWAYS do
sjnsjnsujsnjsn ok this was embarrassing no big deal

- coco for cocoa puffs <3

Ya.

My life story.

Journal # 10

Ok there's no food in the house.. so I decide to make pasta. I'm preparing the pan and he comes in and complains "Oh just eat what we have" Okay not everyone has the same taste in food as you. And it's not going to harm anyone. Like, wow you are going to wash a pan after it. So painful. Like gtfo. I'm going to starve myself now. He's always dragging me down with his negativity and is so over dramatic. He makes everything a big scene.. I wish my mom was home.

#5

5.            The central conflict that exists in The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain is that Huck struggles with his conscience. This conflict gains greater focus in Huck’s dealings with Jim, as Huck must decide whether to turn Jim in, as society demands, or to protect and help his friend instead. We see the extent to which Huck’s mind is dominated by the mores of a slave holding society. As Huckleberry reminisces to himself: “I tried to make it out that I warn’t to blame, because I didn’t run Jim off from his rightful owner; but it warn’t no use, conscience up and says, every time, ‘But you knowed he was running for freedom, and you could a paddled ashore and told somebody’” (Twain 134). This quote demonstrates that there is a head on clash between Huck’s belief in what he has been taught and his natural humanitarian inclination. Huck most fully comes to grip with his moral dilemma. Miss Watson and Widow Douglas are the additional sources who assisted in brainwashing Huck that segregation against blacks was right. As Coelho writes: “Conscience says to me, ‘What had poor Miss Watson done to you, that you could see her nigger go off right under your eyes and never say a single word? What did that poor old woman do to, that you could treat her so mean?’” (Twain 134). This quote proves that he has been raised with a certain set of values, and he struggles with those values when he goes against them. As has been said before, Huck is a child of slave-holding Mississippi Valley, and as such he believes slave-holding to be right. He has been taught that anyone who attempts to free a slave is an agent of, almost literally, the devil. Huck is in a war with his mind and his heart. His mind is constantly reminding him of society’s cruel expectations, while his heart is implicating that he should assist Jim to freedom like white society obtains. As Huckleberry writes: “It froze me to hear such talk. He wouldn’t ever dared to talk such talk in his life before. Just to see what a difference it made in him the minute he judged he was about free” (Twain 135). This quote shows that Huckleberry witnesses the result of Jim’s life transformation and the impact he has made. It displays the potential happiness that has been taken away from many people of black descents. Huckleberry Finn’s heart confirms to him the actions and risks he is going through is morally correct and that society is definitely mistaken. These ideas contribute to the meaning of the book of Huck’s birth and rebirth. When he feels stifled or deadened by society, he escapes to become reborn again. And throughout the novel Huck loses his identity, assumes different names, arranges his own murder, and then, in turn, is reborn with new or different values. This relates the meaning of the work because Mark Twain is interpreting to us that racism is indeed wrong and that people being judged based on their appearance is utterly disgracing to the human race. This highlights the theme of racism, standing up for what’s right and morality. Therefore, Huckleberry Finn is in a battle with his conscience and society’s expectations.

Huckleberry Finn #1

            Pap Finn is a significant villain figure in The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. Huck’s father is an awfully drunken despicable creature. Pap Finn is drunken, vulgar and ignorant individual who leads the life of evil without any changes. He has no redeeming features except, perhaps, his ability to be independent. It is this ability to go it alone that has rubbed off on Huck. Pap resents his poverty, but his laziness will not let him do anything to overcome it. His festering resentment develops into a hatred of anyone who has anything such as an education, a home, or a white shirt. An outstanding object of this hate is a dignified Negro professor, his opposite in every way, whose very appearance is a reproach to Pap. Huck comes in form a beating from Pap because he does to school and will therefore become superior to his father. The widow and Judge Thatcher are safe from his violence, but he hates them bitterly because they prevent him from getting Huck’s money. Unlike other villains in the novel, the kind and the duke, Pap has a sadistic streak and courts trouble. Pap’s violent death, therefore, is an appropriate touch of poetic justice.

Pap Finn enhances the themes in The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain. Pap Finn enriches the theme of general debasement of white society in the novel. Twain interprets to the readers a sense of the disgraceful reality and treatments that blacks had to deal with through Pap’s arguments. As part of Pap’s lengthy speech to Huckleberry, “‘When they told me there was a state in this country where they’d let a nigger vote, I drawed out. I says I’ll never vote again’” (Twain 44). This quote suggests the attitude the majority of white people sensed against people of colour in the past, but fortunately tremendously less today. These people were instantly judged on their looks and classified as lower classed because of it. Unfortunately, society still does condemn people by their appearance without any knowledge at all about their characteristic. People without a doubt should be judged by the size of their heart, rather than being defined by the colour of their skin, waist size or clothes. People who have outlooks on life that are similar to Pap’s are the reasons why civilization will certainly not come to the conclusion of peace. Pap Finn deepens the theme of the failure of family structures. Mark Twain forces the audience to reminisce on the significance of family. Twain demonstrates through the actions of Pap Finn and his treatments towards Huck, the unfortunate realism that not every child has experienced love as they grew and developed as a person. This is the reasoning behind a countless number of negative actions and decisions because not every child has been given the guidance that is necessary to prevent this. Unfortunately, civilization judges people based on their actions without knowing the meaning behind it. As Twain writes, “He chased me round the place, with a clasp-knife, calling me the Angel of Death and saying he would kill me and then I couldn’t come for him no more” (Twain 47). This quote is a haunting example of how some families are. Pap Finn is constantly blaming Huck for everything he isn’t able to do. Family members do suffer from abuse, whether it mentally, emotionally or physically which branch out to numerous conflicts such as suicidal thoughts, running away and death. Words truly cannot explain the heart breaking torture some families must go through and others will never genuinely understand unless put into that position. Pap Finn improves the theme of human nature in the novel. Pap Finn is constantly dragging Huck down with his negativity and is awfully jealous of Huck’s success in school. “You think you’re better’n your father, now, don’t you, because he can’t? I’ll take it out of you,” as Pap Finn exclaims to Huck. Unfortunately this is how society functions: someone’s success always seems to bring pain to someone else. We live in a world where everyone is constantly trying to have more power and be better than everyone else. People fail to realize that when the love for power is replaced with the power of love, the world will then realize what peace is. Therefore, Pap Finn is a villain figure and highlights the theme of general debasement of white society, family and human nature in The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain.

OMBARESSING LMMMMMMMMAO

         

            Fatima is an important force that educates Santiago. Fatima shows Santiago what love is and inspires him keep going on. Love is not an emotion that is impossible to describe, but can only be felt. Love isn't about finding a perfect person because no one is perfect. It's about seeing an imperfect person perfectly. As Coelho writes:

At that moment, it seemed to him time stood still, and the Soul of the World surged within him. When he looked into her dark eyes, and saw that her lips were poised between a laugh and silence, he learned the most important part of the language that all the world spoke – the language that everyone on earth was capable of understanding in their heart. It was love (Coelho 92).

Everyone has a different interpretation of what love is and this quote is its definition in Santiago’s eyes. Santiago learns from this that love is part of the Language of the World because it is understood by the heart, not by the mind. Santiago is aware that without such love, dreams would have no meaning. Fatima educates Santiago of how love never gets in the way of pursuing a dream. A countless number of people believe it is a distraction, but that is not true. If does stop you from pursing your dream then it was never real. As Fatima explains to Santiago:

That’s why I want you to continue toward your goal. If you have to wait until the war is over, then wait. But if you have to go before then, go on in pursuit of your dream. The dunes are changed by the wind, but the desert never changes. That’s the way it will be with our love for each other (Coelho 97).

The quote is about how people know what to do, but are afraid of hurting those around them by abandoning everything in order to pursue their dreams. They do not realize that love is just a further impetus, not something that will prevent people from going forward. People do not realize that those who genuinely wish them well want them to be happy and prepared to accompany then on that journey. Santiago learns that love is a stimulus and that if they are truly meant to be then they shall meet again. Santiago learns from Fatima of love functions. Fatima tells Santiago: “One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving” (Coelho 122).

           

I miss you.

Well I kept my promise..

I miss Giovanni

                                                                                                                                       Tran 1

Kim Tran

Mrs. Selvaggi

English 1D1P

13 December 2010

An Analysis of Apprenticeship in Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist

            Apprenticeship is a training system of educating by teaching. Apprenticeships are necessary and beneficial in our lives because they play a vital role in assisting us to make informed choices of our lives, further develop our knowledge and willingness to try new approaches and build our morals. Apprenticeships are the key and stepping stones in helping us to become the people we desire to be. Writers focus on this theme of apprenticeship unceasingly because they demonstrate to their readers the lessons and hardships of life and persuade the audience to examine their own lives and the societies they live in. In addition, they include this theme for the purpose of expressing their view points on life, to build morality in humanity and connect with the audience both emotionally and mentally.  Writers incorporate these motifs for the purpose of inspiring their and touching the hearts of readers by helping them figure out their purpose in life. Writers believe that it is possible for all human beings to achieve what they most desire their lives. Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist is a novel about the theme of apprenticeship. Santiago, a young adult, has dreams beyond the Andalusian Plains. He is put through a countless amount of tests and obstacles as he journeys in search for his hidden treasure in the Pyramids of Egypt in order to fulfil his personal legend. In Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist the theme of apprenticeship is highlighted through Melchizedek, the Alchemist and Fatima.

            Melchizedek is a vitally significant mentor figure of Santiago in The Alchemist. Melchizedek educates Santiago about the topic of personal legends. A personal legend is the path we decide to take that fills our heart with enthusiasm. It is the path of our dreams.   As Coelho writes:

It is what you have always wanted to accomplish. Everyone, when they are young knows what their personal legend is. At one point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it is impossible for them to realize their personal legend (Coelho 21).

This quote means that we are told from our childhood onward that everything we want to do is impossible. We grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so do the layers of prejudice, fear and guilt. There comes a time where our personal legend calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible, but it is still there. Melchizedek informs Santiago that unfortunately not everyone is able to confront their dreams due to the lack of courage and fail to realize that people are capable, at any time in their lives doing what they dream of. This accumulates the first step in Santiago’s journey. He is encouraged to fulfil his own personal legend and now knows that there is no limit of dreaming and that everything is possible.  Santiago is willing to sacrifice everything to accomplish his goal to pursue his personal legend, such as leaving his flock of sheep he had bonded for two years. Melchizedek teaches Santiago a vital lesson about balance which is the key aspect in the pursuit of happiness. Balance is the equality of distribution. Balance branches out to providing moderation to mannerism, desires, temperament and lifestyle and is an interesting concept to integrate into our lives. Melchizedek

exposes to Santiago: “‘The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world, and never forget the oil on the spoon’” (Coelho 32). This quote means that when people find the perfect stability of balance in their lives they are able to look at life at a healthier approach. If we do not have balance in our lives happiness and success will not be guaranteed. The interpretation of the two drops of the oil does not simply represent the mundane concerns or duties of life. It also represents those things which we are most passionate about. It is our calling or mission in life. Still, even when we are following our mission, whatever that calling may be, we have to remember to lift our eyes from time to time and view the wonders all around. It is all a matter of balance. Just to find the right path, our personal destiny, is not enough. Even though following that path is an enormous joy in itself, we still have to maintain a certain sense of what is going on around us now and then and not be wholly consumed by our work, whatever it may be. Even the noblest work can drain the life out of us if we do not take the time to recharge our batteries now and then. At the first glimpse Santiago fails to understand this idea and loses sight of his reason of being. While he admiring the sword, his companion steals his money needed to travel and get to his destination. Later, he perfects this concept by balancing his personal legend along with Fatima, his sheep, money and family. Melchizedek teaches Santiago about omens. Omens are the individual language in which God talks to people. A person’s omens are different from another person’s omens. They are this strange but very individual language that guides people toward their own destiny. They are not logical and talk to a person’s heart directly. The only way of learning this language is by making mistakes and then the signs will connect with people and guide them. It is the silent voice of God that leads people to places they should be. Melchizedek tells Santiago: “‘Don’t forget the language of the omens. And, above all, don’t forget to follow

your personal legend through to its conclusion (Coelho 30).’” Melchizedek to never forget about the omens because they will play a vital role in helping him achieve and fulfil his personal legend. Melchizedek also informs Santiago to not be discouraged at the conflicts thrown at him along his journey because the darkest hour of the night is just before dawn. The king explains how humans tend to over exaggerate on situations and convince themselves things are much more difficult than they really are, but this is completely wrong. It is simply one thing and nothing else. Being able to observe and read omens is a key motif throughout the book. Santiago recognizes the hole in his pouch in which Urim and Thummin fell out of in Tangier as an omen, as he had promised the old king that he would make his own decisions, not let the stones do it for him. The crystal merchant of Tangier recognizes Santiago's presence in the shop as an omen, as two customers came into the shop as he was cleaning the crystals for the merchant. Santiago later finds that going to the desert was a good omen, as he was able to meet Fatima, his love. Santiago reads omens in the flight of two hawks and has a premonition of an attack on the oasis as he is in the Sahara Desert. Omens play a key role in the unraveling of Santiago's fate. As a result, Melchizedek is a potent teacher of Santiago in The Alchemist.

            In Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist the Alchemist is one of Santiago’s greatest teachers. The Alchemist explains to Santiago the one force that stops people from pursuing their dreams to its conclusion. People may overcome this or be overcome by it. As the Alchemist tells Santiago: “‘Tell your heart that the dear of suffering is worse than suffering itself’” (Coelho 130). The quote has a compelling message. Once people overcome these defeats they’re filled with a greater sense of euphoria and confidence. It is proving that they are worthy of the miracle of life. Each day and each hour is part of a good fight. Intense, unexpected suffering passes more quickly than suffering that is apparently bearable. This later goes on for years and, without our noticing, eats away at our soul, until, one day, we are no longer able to free ourselves from the bitterness and it stays with us for the rest of our lives. It is the universal emotion of fear that people my overcome of be overcome by it. Along the journey, Santiago has a constant urge to quit, but he searches within himself to find that inner strength and pulls it out to get that motivation. He put this to use when he was at the Pyramids of Egypt and dug all night for the treasure until his hand were exhausted and abraded and still even after he was beaten. The Alchemist educates Santiago about what holds people back from pursuing their dreams. How people overcome this is what defines them. As Coelho writes:

People are afraid to pursue their most important dreams, because they feel that they don’t deserve them, or that they’ll be unable to achieve them. We, their hearts, become fearful just thinking of loved ones who go away forever, or of moments that could have been good but weren’t, or of treasures that might have been found but were forever hidden in the sands. Because, when these things happen, we suffer terribly (Coelho 130).  

This evaluates the concept of giving up. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and fell that we do not deserve to get what we want either. People forget about the obstacles they overcame, all the suffering they endured, and all the things they had to give up in order to get this far. There are a countless amount of people who, when their calling is in grasp, went on to commit a series of mistakes and never reached their goal when it was only a step away. This is the most dangerous of obstacles. If people believe in themselves that they are worthy of the goal they fought so hard to get, then they people become an instrument of God and understand why they are there. Santiago realizes he must let go of things in order to achieve his dream. He leaves his true love, the sheep, and the Andulusian Plains. Santiago is educated of the fact whether he believes he can or cannot do something he is correct. In the end, Santiago is able to pull through to the conclusion it. The Alchemist introduces Santiago about the concept of the Soul of the World and the Language of the World. The Soul of the World is the idea that everything has its own entity and identity and the Language of the World is the concept where everyone, regardless of who they are and where they originate from, possesses the ability to communicate with each other through expressions, body language, and actions. As Coelho writes:                        

What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It is not because it is evil, but so we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned toward that dream. That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, ‘one dies of thirst when the palm trees have appeared in the horizon.’ Every search begins with beginners luck. And every search ends with the victors being severely tested (Coelho 132).

The quote is about how people tend to give up right before they are almost done accomplishing their personal legend. The reasoning behind this is because they look on how far they have to go rather than how far they have already gone through. Santiago learns from this to not be afraid. Near the end of his conquest, he continuously digs for the treasure and doesn’t stop even when he is beaten up.